My Wife

My wife is my life's delight. She is an incredible woman. She radiates with elegance, beauty, brightness and joy. I have never met a woman her age who has such a paradoxical mixture of depth and lightheartedness. Having experienced much suffering herself, she has an amazing ability to relate to and minister to hurting people. She has a maturity and soberness that usually takes a few decades of bumps and bruises along life's journey to develop. But at the same time she's the silliest person I know, capable of laughing deeply and hysterically and making me do the same.

Her walk with the Lord is real and raw, and usually more intimate than mine. She oozes spiritual discernment and can speak piercing truth into situations with unusual clarity. She strives to know her God intimately, finding her worth in His love for her rather than what she can accomplish for Him. Yet she is incredibly ministry-minded, and naturally gives herself to the people around her. Those who have been close to her know that she loves, prays, and cares deeply for others. She is wise in relationships, and especially gifted in ministering to other women.

But God has also seen fit to adorn her with weaknesses to balance her strengths, and also, I believe, for my growth and sanctification. During the year before our wedding, she went through severe burnout as a result of complete ministry overload, planning a wedding, family issues, medical trials, and physical ailments. Now this past year she has been forced to slow down dramatically from her old pace of life, and to such a degree that an uninformed outsider might think her passive or lazy. But that is literally the farthest thing from the truth. Panic attacks, social anxiety, and other psychological and physical symptoms have been the results when she tries to resume "normal" life. My beautiful, talented, gifted, intelligent, driven, passionate wife has been forced to slow down, and so have I. But the world doesn't really let you slow down. As a young adult, you're expected to keep the same unsustainably busy and franctic pace of life as others. But some of our bodies can't actually handle that. Serotonin levels and adrenal glands deplete and fizz out, and you're left physically incapable of doing normal life. I don't know, I guess that's partly why I'm writing this. And because I love thinking about how great Kaitlyn is.

My wife is my life's delight.

Her husband arises and calls her blessed;
he praises her:

"Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all."

Proverbs 31:28-29